died for his dedication

Sleman, Yogyakarta - "I am still in Mbah Maridjan's house. There are many guests here. Mbah Maridjan said he would have Ashar praying first", Wawan said to his friend from Yogyakarta's today newspaper, on the phone, few hours before the eruption occurred. 

Yuniawan Nugroho, often called Wawan, appeared in the victim list of mount Merapi eruption, on October, 26th 2010. Work as a journalist, he was dedicated to do his job for documenting the updated information about mount Merapi. 

For making it good, he directly went to theKinahrejo, Umbulharjo, Cangkringan village, Sleman, Yogyakarta, in which Mbah Maridjan lives. Unfortunatelly, he got trapped there, when the eruption of mount Merapi was occurring. 

This 32 years old man might not be died if he didn't come back to Mbah Maridjan's house, soon after the warning sirine heard, for picking him up to go down to the more safe are. "He is a caring and loveable person. Helping other people is not the unusual thing to do , for he also contributed in the program of charity and welfare for improvised  person", Yudi, his work partner, also work as a journalist explained to us. 

Yet, what I want to say is that even though someone possessing intention, to help others, but still God who does creates decision. Wawan was killed, there, when the Pyroclastic flow was approaching the land - the current location where he was in Mbah Maridjan's house. That huge clouds of ash stoppedr, his life and his career as a journalist. 

Being found died, Wawan along with Mbah Maridjan and the rest 8 ones were evacuated soon after the location was nearly safe because of the great eruption of Mount Merapi. Yes, the eruption  which didn't need much time not only to cover the whole nearest village in Kaliurang including Canfkringan, which is considered as the worst area being destroyed, but also the people surrounded grief and mourning of this tearful thing. 

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Howdy Dina? Hopes you well..

Well.. i cannot imagine from what i had learnt from your story.. it must be tough for you.. i hope god always bless and protect you. Life is hard.. not always fun. Im also got a hard life such as you Dina. Then I’ll tell you my story. This could become a lesson from who read this.

This is happened When i’m still 3 years old. My late father had gotten a fatal accident when he got back from his bussiness at Holland. Which made him paralyze for all his life verdict the Doctor.  I learnt many thing from this eyes. How hard the life is.  As the only child from my family, you cannot say im childish if you learnt my stories. From this eyes, i looked into my mother. She is a wonderful mother. Even my dad was on hospital everyday and got paralyze for all his life time. My mother won’t give up. And be patiently nursing him. Maybe i just a young girl that day and doesn’t understand anything. But i never see any tears from my mom eyes. She just doesnt want to make me worry. Eventhough i did not know what happened to my father. As a kid, i keep asking many question such as “when dad going home mom? Is he still sick?? Why he always sleep in hospital and doesnt want to play with me?” my mother doesn’t answer those question, i just get tremble hug from her.

In the school, many of my friend teased me about my father condition or even walked away from me... not only in the elementary school, in junior high school and senior highschool. All of my friend had learnt about my father condition. Well... i just got a few friend from every school which is i entered. My mother also... she got a mockery from our siblings and our neighbourhood. My mother not fears anything except god. She always told me “everytime we sad, god protect us and give his bless to us. And dont forget a miracle always with a patient people. ” I want to believe this word. Then, my mother told me when my father had been fired in his work. Because all his friend said “ he cannot give anything to the enterprise. Because he is paralyze and stayed in the hospital. He is not worth anymore even he gave manything to our concerns back then.” When those hope vanish in our family. This what my mothers meant “a miracle always with a patient people”. The miracle happened. I bet a god sent an angle from heaven. Nah not that’s cool.. but i bet my father friend is an angle for our family. Because of him, my father could continue his work even he only stayed in hospital not working in his usual place. 

Day and day had passed. Day changed weeks, weeks changes month changed year. But theres no sign to my father to get cure from his paralyze. Every I’d Day or Ahad day. My father just stayed in hospital all by himself. Not even his siblings looked at him or just to say “hows your feeling?” my father always alone  and felt lonely i could tell from his eyes. But he just smiled everytime i asked him and came to see him. My father always proud to me even i cannot give him anything such as : i never got any rank in my class or even a charter from any competition. I gave him nothing. I felt.. Im just a failed girl back then.

Im grown up into fine young lady. I get strong and strong everyday, everytime i heard mockery or anything. Im always thought positive. God loved me. He doing this to all my family because he loved us. And he already built a better place for us in heaven if i stayed strong.

When 18 years old and become student of UGM. My father passed away. I bet... i could make him happy in the end of his life. But.. i cannot attend to his burial because i got an final exam for my course. My father already mention this could be happened so he told his last word to his friend that “if my daughter cannot go home when my time is coming. Just burried me right away. “ my tears burst out when i learnt this from my mother.

Now, might be my father had stand in his own feet and could do anything he wants... up there..

Right now.. im the one who will continue my own story start from today.. because the past is one thing that we can not forget. But it become our strong building to face a new future ahead. Which is the one who could reach it with a happy ending one or sad ending. It is all in your hand. Because this is my story and im the one who will reach happy ending one.

Yogyakarta. 15 March

From the one who never scared to try and try again.

Dia Rakhma

Elliot and Me

ELLIOT AND ME

It is my story...

I started to talking with my drawing names Elliot Nightray based on Pandora Hearts comic created by Jun Mochizuki and she gets sponsored by Square Enix. This scene might be happened if i talked to him. Elliot is a rude gentleman and also easily get angry even so he had kindhearted and justice also he won’t let someone got any trouble. Even himself who started to helped them but alas..He the one who trapped in their own trouble. In the end, he starts to lecturer each of them. Poor him..But that’s what made me become his big fans.

In the nice calm days, a gentle sun approached a spirited girl names Dia. She walked around her campus and suddenly brags into someone which is she already known names Elliot. In that Day Elliot brought something in his arm. Then that girl approached him

Dia      : ELLLIOOOOTTT!!! *she runs closer to him

Elliot   : oh..You again. What now? *glance at her then cross his arm.

Dia      : Panting* gee Elliot it was not nice if you approached a lady like that?

Elliot   : so? What you want? *not look at her.

Dia      : nothing particular. *giggles. *she realizes something which are brought by him.

Elliot   : what? It’s something matter?

Dia      : uwaaaaa!!!!! *scream.

Elliot   : *startled. w-what those scream about?!!

Dia      : *sparkling everywhere. Aren’t Those gift and flowweeerfoorrrmeee?? *enthusiastic

Elliot   : what? This? These are not for you idiot!!

Dia      : *puff cheeks. What? My name is Dia NOT IDIOTTT!!

Elliot   : whatever..you just wasting my time and it’s not used to talked with someone like you. *he walked away

Dia      :  *following him. Ne..ne ... why you did not tell me? For whom all those gift?

Elliot   : IM NOT GIVING TO ANYONE!! JUST STOP FOLLOWING ME!!

Dia      : But... But... *teary eyes. Aha.. *an idea shows up. Then give me a hint!! Pleaseee pretty pleaassee!! I’m begging you!! Should i kneeling in your feet?? *grab his arm cloth

Elliot   : are you hit your head or something? Did you ever listen? If someone doesn’t want to tell you so...

Dia      : soo?? *innocent face

Elliot   : STOP FORCING THEM IDIOTIC RETARD!!

Dia      : then, if you did not want to talk to me, why you should answered my question? You could just walked away or just ignore me, right?

Elliot   :  alright i got enough... here!! Take this if you want *throw away the gift. But go away from my sight! Don’t you ever dare to show your face infrontoff me anymore!! Understand?

Dia      : *take the gifts. Then... then...I’ll show myself behind you!! So you couldnot see me!! But i could be alwaysstick around with you!! How’s that??

Elliot   : *he silent for a while. STOP TWISTING MY WORDS!!

Dia      : But im not twisting your word!! I’m just said an opposite from your words!! *hugs him

Elliot   : THATS THE SAM--- W-WHAT THE HELL YOU ARE DOING?!! *his face turn red

Dia      : im hugging you?? *still hug, used innocent face

Elliot   : *he pissed off like hell. I know idiot!! I asked your reason doing this!!! *he struggle

Dia      : um..no need a reason to hugggingrigghhtt?

Elliot   : idiot!! *he already push her. Then he walked away again

Dia      : *giggles. Alright then Elliot!! Happy Valentine!! *she waved hand

Elliot   : *he stopped then turn around looking at her. What did you say?

Dia      : i said... h-a-p-p-y v-a-l-e-n-t-i-n-e?

Elliot   : *he touch his forehead. You don’t need to spell it..geez..did you already know? THIS ALREADY MARCH!! Didn’t you check your calender already huh?!!

Dia      : is it?? i gotten wrong then.. theeennn HAPPY WHITE DAYY!!!

Elliot   : *speechless. Walked away again. This what will end if i answered an idiot like that. Geez... what a waste of time..

Dia      : BYE ELLIOT!!! *waved hand again

Elliot   : *he remain silent and keep walking into calm place as far as he could

Different side of the past and future in Malioboro

During 1980 in Yogyakarta, who doesn't know about Malioboro streets? nowdays, it changed in many renovation in but back in 1980, Malioboro only had one side streets. The streets also wide. There's many pedestrian who could pass through without worries to the vehicle hitting them or they could also walked freely in the sidewalk without worrying into some pickpockets who could steal their money. There's also many trees which are stood in every side of Yogyakarta. So, the air still fresh. We can enjoy our meal in the branch in the sidewalk without worrying into the air pollution and also back then, the vehicle did not pollute yogyakarta so, some of citizen or even tourism had chosen carriage to bring them to see around Yogyakarta.

But nowdays,  the gentleness of Yogyakarta city already gone sweep within the time. Malioboro streets now divided into two side because the needs of vehicle continual increase, it makes Yogyakarta government divided those street into two side. Not only that, it also hard to pass into sidewalk from different side now.. because the increased of vehicle makes the street crowded so it's to hard to passing it. Because, there's no control of vehicle problems, we loosed our fresh air not only that; increasing of vehicles, the crowded population and also the illegal logging makes the air more decrease but the consumed of the air more increase.  Not only that, we must not let our guard down if we pass through the sidewalk alone or with friends or family because every pickpocket in the Malioboro streets will welcoming you if you had many money in your pocket.    

one part of my hard life journey

Before i entered UGM my major in my school was social science. In my school there were two majors social sciences and exact sciences. Every teacher didn't like students from social sciences with their own reasons one of them said "social students only made chaos at school even their marks were not worth mentioning at all". i didn't even feel like those mockery to us as social students. then, i promised to my self i'll proved it to them and i would make them eat their own words. Because i believed every underestimated person would be successful someday. Then, i tried to take a writen test in Ugm. Along with all my school friends.

Several months later

I didn't believe i passed the test!! Wohhoo!! only five people including me and the rest of them from exact science who passed those tests. I really had gotten luck because the cleverest student in social science didn't pass the test. But, once more, even my classmates now mocked me. "they said i cheated so i could pass it"

I kept ignoring them, i didn't care, i kept moving to continue the last test would was oral test. I went to Yogyakarta from Banten along with my parents. After i got test interviewer in bilingual then, i walked out to approach my parents. Next, we stayed in my rooming house for sometime to wait the result.

One weeks later

I dont want to believe it!! but it was happened!! i passed the test and succeed became Ugm student of english literature.

Im really happy in that time. My feeling like walking in the heaven with a bunch nice looking boys *giggles 

Then, i went home with my family.

At school

i could'nt believe it!! everyone stood in the yards for waiting me and my friends who were passed the test. 

All student, and staff congratulated us. 

One years later.

One of my rooming teacher phone me, she said "hey, Dia, you know, there were many additional classes for social science for your junior. All thanks because of you. No one will look down at social student now. "

My tears flowing heard that. I really thankful to god. If it's not him i will not be that popular. *giggles,,just kidding not that popular~~   

Well thats my story who wants to share? now is about yours story.

it's my own words. " tried your best to reach your future. no one can help you. only you who can make your ways. Because you ARE THE MAIN CHARACTER IN YOUR STORY. change and proved it with powers and believe. never give up to try and believe. God always with patient people or with the people who didn't try to give up or escape from their fate. Dreams it then reach it with your own hand and make a Happy Ending for your story. Good luck!"

last hope

walked alone in the dark..
silent for a while
until found a little light mixing with the pitch black
touch it with a tremble hand
the light is so warm and gentle

a confident shows up
i start singing a melody
it soars into sky
hope this melody could reach you

all about my feeling
wherever you will go
i can hear your voice
your voice echoing in my heart

soft and tender
my heart beat fast
i run into it
to reach unforgotten voice
echoing everywhere
no one there
only sound of a wind
it glad my arms softly

i closed my eyes
the last hope that i could see you there
only in my own world

i should tell you
that i really love you
and still want you
waiting for me
in ours special place